self inflicted
how does one feel lonely with so much happening around a cage that does not show and does not exist
how does one feel lonely with so much happening around a cage that does not show and does not exist
as a shepards tone a none ending drop moving and standing still existence and non-existence no escape
hurt only visible to me unable to show to others stuck in my own disbelief yet the pain continues taunting me whenever it wants making me forget when it left forcing me to remember when it returns
I’m never good enough the limit above me always the chasm deeper every step afraid to fall a different meaning to the only way is up.
pain at every turn moving or standing still a self built room that serves no purpose but I can’t leave.
only feeling when I’m alone tears rolling when no one can catch lack of shoulders no safety in sight being as I should be
where do I go not wasting energy eliminating all risk it is safe here no need to move.
even when I give my all I still feel I take too much no effort for me is enough already.
feelings of emptyness aimed at nothing afraid to end up at a dead end not able to move forward.
a place to speak my mind the idea of a sole entity creating the space to feel letting my emotions free bare to the entire world.